When i am talking to someone, and know exactly how they look, i get all weird feelings toward them, and when i meet them, they can either look better or worse, and i could like them, more or less. I was talking to this super attractive guy, i met him in person today, and i was just not good enough for his hotness-.- i hate being told that people have no expectations, and being told that i am hot, by someone even more so, for them to act completely differently, i know one of you who will find this hypocritical, and this experience is one that has to be experienced before it is understood, i really am sorry if i have hurt anyone before, i had never known what it feels like to be rejected, and all i feel is stupid, ugly, pathetic and unworthy, and to top it off, he said i should dye my hair dark brown when i asked him what colour to go, i now have fucking disgusting black hair, which i am going to dye over, and i will have dyed my hair four times in five days, and i have now, thanks to Jeremy, realised that i am a docile faggot, and i hate my life, i never feel good enough, all i want is a place to fit in and be me and be loved by a super hot man who can be all mine